I don't remember when I wrote last time. Past 2 years have been very turmoil.
So, if you remember, I started my practice in 2017. I thought I could never go back to job again so decided to use my professional knowledge for my start up. And simultaneously I started part time teaching also in college. But I was not satisfied with both of them. But it was working fine. I was having a wok life balance & some amount of work as well. Then came the great Covid & my life turned upside down. No household help and no staff to work. Everything changed. Situations forced me to again join the corporate workforce. I was enthralled!! I thought this is my moment. God has been very kind that I got job during these times.
I joined EY. Excellent organization but too much workload & stress. Had lot of struggle. Having more than 6 years break...it's not easy to gel again. I tried..and it worked. But my family, especially my daughter got ignored...highly ignored.
I could not keep track of her foods, health & education. I am failing as a mother..each day..and this feeling is eating me up. Yesterday, she was very sad & crying..mumma you don't have time for me. Send me somewhere else. I broke inside. Terrible feeling. What should I do?
I cannot quit the organisation..they are not allowing me to shift the client..it's struggle each day.
I perhaps made some blunders..but what should I do? I am so confused. I think there is some issue with my personality. I am not happy in any situation..I am confused...incannot stick to one decision.
Perhaps this too shall pass .. hopefully.
Can't sleep..mind is continuously working...
Dar lag rha hai...thak gyi hun..
